macrobiotic youth

[Klara]

I think writing what I feel makes a helluva lot more sense than me telling you what you should feel and/or do

of course, we could just all pretend to be all-knowing and speak in the royal WE and claim "neutral" TRUTHS - which imho is sheer nonsense

all we could do is share our own experiences - so makes sense that "I" comes into play alot

so how and what did you heal from? Healing stories are always so inspiring.

Klara

[warrior]

OMG, that royal WE part was so funny, you are totally right.

aah..yeea, about my problem, hm, I would suggest to transport this topic somewhere else but, that would be really emberressing, becouse I would have to title it-how I beat Mr. Anderson with mb, no seriously, this is whats it is about(I am about to write some crazy stuff, so to all emotionally disturbed people there-dont read this if your mind doesnt look like a cristal clear lake): caught,caught; I found mb, by reading "ZEN mb" that was collecting dust in my uncles apartment, becouse he had throath cancer, but he is not the tipe of guy who will give up pork for rice so...Yea, and when reading Ohsawas work, I got more and more interested in the philosophy, and step buy step I was applying it on my life; so I was not "forced" by a problem in becoming more natural, but as time passed I figured out that something is seriouselly wrong with me, with my mind. As Iwent to collage, I became more and more antisocial, had all these ideas of saving the world crap in my mind, I tought if I am happy and people in,for example, Africa are suffering, than I am an selfish and weak man, so I didnt want to go to parties or so becouse I tought that is a waste of time to study and make a difference; the trought was that I wasnt studying either, most of the time I was thinking about life, and being confused. Fear and axiety where my friend for life at that time, I was opssesed with the meaning of life, what I am here for, and I know most people also had this questions, but it gets BETTER, I also wasnt shure is this all real or some cind of evil illussion. So you figured it out-I wasnt best in collage with this on my mind. I was absent in my mind all the time, at lecttures, at home... It was nothing wrong with my body what san you see)or a microscope)but my life was living hell, becouse i was trapped inside my head with this huge amount of suffering. I think I can call that state-total collapse of all perspectives in life, becouse I was aware there is a life out there that is going to be wasted,but I wasnt sure if life was really real. My simptoms where as weard as it can get-from being worried about we all actually be in a Matrix, like the movie, and when, we die, we descover that all was for nothing becouse we are batteries for the robots; to thinking that this all could be some sort of mine video game so other people dont really exist. One time I tought that god could actually be the devil; didnt know what to think about life in general. So on one hand I was pretending I was batman, and on the other hand I wasnt shure why was I doing all that
So since I was studying mb, I figured out that I am an extreme yin person(I am a male), with schizophrenia like simptoms, and that I can contribute that to being a vegetarian fo 2 years, eating all kind of chaotic food . It passed some time for me to go to a counselor who gave me a diet program which I followed mabye 70%, and this last past months I have never been more happier and at peace with my self(and if I followed the program 100%, boy...) So I am back to nature now, to my familly, friends, studying, going out, gardening, playing guitar...

That is my story, hope the people who read this are still awake and able to think

PS I am going to see my counselor within a feu days(he is called Zlatko Pejich, and is almost 400 km away from me)

[Klara]

Warrior,

I'm really glad you wrote your story - I think it shows how something that seems quite ok, just by going a few steps more can become extreme. I'm sure all of us have thoughts about the meaning of life, and the unfairness of it all. I'm sure alot of people who help others also have that empathetic quality of knowing "there but for the grace of G-d go you or I"

and the beauty of your story is how you realize even thoughts themselves can create reality, or better, how your diet being yin creates or contributes to such thoughts. Even eating vegetarian can mean so many things - there isn't such order in vegetarianism as can be had with the tools of yin/yang - just not eating meat isn't enough, maybe a good step in the right direction for many SAD eaters, but just not enough for balance.

You're going 400 km to see a counselor!!!!! for that I tip my hat off to you!!!!! I hope he's fantastic!!!! Does he write on the computer? in English??

I'm just a run of the mill kind of mb - I am certainly far away from 100% mb, don't really have any big issues or physical complaints, my head knows I could be practicing mb better, but my body also knows I've been doing it well enough - my progress is slow and steady and that works for me. Sometimes I'm envious of others who seem to be flying with it, other times I say, ok, that's them, and I'm me.

Klara

[warrior]

oh, and I wanted to share that all of my minor phisical problems, went away, they where not much, but it is interesting how it all wanished, I really figured out that mb has nothing to do with the food, I think food is just step#2, #1 is in my opinion the soul, and when we have the will can acomplish a lot, and I really believe sickness of any kind has a bit to do with us having a problem within us, also my inside problem, could be fought with this.
I think it is not exectlly 400 km but a little less, I think space is yang in comparison to time so...
Regarding your progress; that is one big lesson I learned not so easy-tthat it is all right to take step buy step acomplyshments(?), I am the kinda guy who wants everithing done at once, but that is really the weakling stile, it is much harder to maintain progress slowly in every moment of your life

this is my dragon finally
http://www.cybermacro.com/forum/memb...rayon-play.jpg