it's me again.
same issue, different day.
i am still binging, still macro.
gave up purging 15 months ago.
i am still out of control with food.
my weight has been very low for a couple of years. recently i lost my job,
and i know it is due to my stressful food habits.
i overeat a lot--will spend days where i eat all day long.
and days when i'm not, i think about food all day
and what i can eat to maximize balance and rid myself of pain.
i am working to pray myself through this.
i spend nights eating all throughout the night, then throughout the day continuing the insanity.
the past few days, i let go, and am not trying to balance out the binging.
it is out of control. perhaps in divine order.
painful, and i know we all die anyways. i am not going to die from this any time soon.
might as well start living!
any advice for coming back to the center,
when the movtiavtion is not there at all???