[meharju]

Thanks for your post. I wish you health and healing. I stopped taking the meds because my diagnosis, borderline personality disorder, is largely behavioral and my doctor at the time advocated less meds and more therapy. I felt a great sense of satisfaction when I could start detoxing from these drugs. My relationship is in trouble because I'm shutting my boyfriend out of my life when I get depressed and then running back to him and asking his forgiveness when I'm better. I'm not doing so well with controlling my impulses when I'm really sad. We've been in couples' therapy for a year and it hasn't helped us much.

Maybe taking some meds will help me with symptoms. I just don't want to become dependent on them and not heal my underlying problems. Perhaps I should outlaw some of the more extreme foods from my diet. My boyfriend is a lover of extreme foods and I sometimes indulge with him. Maybe I just need to be easier on myself.