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Re: indulgence
Curious
Feelings are certainly a function of the body--the body being the yang (father) generally, as compared to the spirit (yin-mother). As one contracts (yangizes), feelings can become more accute and intensely expirienced. How intense and deep feelings can become is not really limited since the universe is infinite.
Your need to control your feelings seems to be a key factor. I suspect that as you contract and come down into your body more, which is a good thing as it affords being more in the moment, you feel uncomfortable because your spirit
and body (mother and father--yin/yang) are not as integrated as they could be. It seems your spirit is not able yet to deal with the bodies intensity.
This is not unique to you alone. Rest assured that this is what everyone on this earth has to deal with. We are living human beings made of body and spirit (yin/yang). The closer together our yin/yang become the closer we come to the center of ourselves and the universe at large. They are probably one in the same. This is the game of life.
Do not feel guilty that you are not able to deal with all of your feelings. To varying degrees---who is? Certainly not me. There is much integrating and growing to do, but this is the "meat" of being alive. Realize that what you are expiriencing is your truth and feel no shame for that, but look as best you can at it and learn. The process of integrating yin/yang is the path of living. We can choose to avoid the process and go on a yinnizing spiral or confront our limitations and go on a yanizing spiral.
It is important to not go beyond ourselves. Takeing it slowly and carefully is the best. Remember the bigger the front the bigger the back--easy come easy go.
A small speck of what could be volumes.
It is devine to be human
Manymoons
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