sorry to hear you are suffering. I have been battleing anorexia for 20 years off and on. Unfortunately mostly on. I am also a vegan and trying to go full fledge macrobiotic but it's hard. I feel like if I focus on eating heathy it will take my mind off my disorder, but it hasn't worked so far. I know I was of no help to you but just thought I would share since our situations are so similiar. Good luck