bulimia help!
i have been practicing macrobiotics for 15 months. i am recovering from a severe eating disorder, which i continue to go back to, now on a weekly basis. i love the macrobiotic lifestyle--cooking for myself and others, the relaxation i feel from eating this way, and the structure it provides. at the same time, i feel i am at the end of my rope with food, continually ending up in the same place in life--hopeless, helpless, isolated, ashamed and unworthy. i keep myself from living a life i love, or even knowing what i love, b/c everytime i feel better, i go back to the numbness, and all the negativity that is contained in the shell of bulimia. onebadday throws me off for more than a week, physically and psychologically deteriorates the hope i feel through macrobiotics.
anyone experienced in this field? also, i am considering becoming a macrobiotic counselor, b/c i love andbenefit from sharing the practice with others. any advisement on whether i should wait to be fully recovered? i am struggling with direction, obviously, and need to be directed away from the focus on food!
blessings,
Waller
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