gosh, your reactions to the crowd sound like mine many years ago during period of panics. I don't have those panics anymore, but I'm aware of such thoughts as you describe still and they trouble and alienate me, and this type of "vibe" is part of what PULLS me to MB, since I'm hoping that some kind of balancing will help mental/emotional issues as well as physical. I'm new to this diet, so can't say for sure, but it sounds like it could be "discharging" of some sort. Then again, it would be good to ask a counselour or someone used to dealing with such things.