[Manymoons]

Dear Derek

I hope you are aware of the difference in your energy from your first posts to this last one. The first ones radiated yin dispersive energy, but in this last one you are far more inside yourself (a more yang healthy state). You were spiraling out and very fast. I was harsh with you becuase you needed to be pushed back into yourself, immediately. I suspect you feel a welcome sense of relief. The yang you need is yourself!

By shocking you, I reversed the direction of the spiral you were on. Your are on a more inward directed spirial, at least for now. You will lose it but it can be found again. and each time you loose it and again find it, it will become easier. I will be here, and rest assured I will not mince words, but will be as carefully loving as circunmstances will permit. Sometimes desparate situations require desparate measures. I want to see you thrive.

When one is inside themselves the food really does its best. The food will match your spirit. It took something on the order of my shocking you to make an adjustment in your spirit. The food alone could not do it.

The altimate goal is to have yourself. To be inside and equal to yourself is heavanly. What else is there except oneselves and the moment. The moment is were yin and yang come together. The blend of the past and the future. When we do not remain in the moment we are renderred impotent, because the moment is all we really have. So to be there, is to be in oneself and that is the most any one could hope for.

Now use the food to fortify yourself and not contract yourself into oblivion. Be full for who you are. Remember the bigger the back the bigger the front!

until later

Manymoons