[AkiNara]

Thank you both for your time and compassion. I really appreciate it. It's good to know I'm not alone in my battle.

I'm doing much better than I was when I posted this thread. I've thought about life, happiness, and other things over the last week and I'm feeling much more confident. I know what my mission in life is. To continue my artistic development and entertain others with my work. Spread some joy while I'm here. And nobody is going to stop me.

My mother... Well, unless I'm mistaken, she's in another of her "moods" right now. My dad's been generously making me food for the last couple hours, and I heard her break out the vaccuum, vaccuum the kitchen, put it away, and I also heard the back door and some cabinents slam. I think she's irritated again. This is getting so tiring... Repeating "I love you." doesn't work to well when you when it's less and less true by the day. But I'll be patient and keep my cool.

I do live in Massachusetts, luckily, and my dad has gone to one of the Kushi cooking classes. So, I guess that's something to be thankful for. So yes, I'm not too far from there. Unfortunately, due to my macro related weight loss, I get uncomfy if I sit up for more than four hours. But whatever, that's not too important for right now.

I'm in the process of setting up a consultation with someone a bit closer to here. He said in his email he would gladly come here for it, so that's good.

And thank you very much for the links. I'll look into all of them tomorrow. I'm not exactly a spiritual person, but if it can help me, I'll give it a shot. Life's too important to not at least give it a try.

Again, thank you for caring. This truly is a difficult time for me, so having support makes this a whole lot less upsetting. It keeps me motivated.

I'll keep you updated!