[Klara]

AkiNara,

Your post has touched me very deeply. My immediate response is I wish I could just reach into the computer and pull you out of your difficult and challenging situation. Being that I don't have those powers, I want to encourage you to do what is absolutely best for YOU!!!

I don't know if you're familiar with other healing stories. Many that I've read, the key to successful healing is to be ready and willing to break old habits that don't support you and that often means getting out of a bad situation. Believe me, many of us wish we could change the attitudes of people around us, and that is probably one of the hardest, if not impossible, things to do. Of course you are more challenged because of being wheel chair bound, but that doesn't mean you can't, if you decide to, find another living situation, ideally close by so your father who is so supportive, can continue to help with his cooking and his love. I don't know what community resources are available to you, but start doing the search - you have half won the battle when your intentions are clear and direct - find other living accomodations that will support your macrobiotic lifestyle - put up ads in the health food store, do a search on the net, find out what your health insurance can help with, look everywhere and ask everyone!!!!

What do you know about the kind of strict diet you need to be on? Have you had a personal consultation? I was very surprized to read that you include oil and garlic, both which to my knowledge are not usually included on strict healing diets, but it's very important to know exactly what your body needs to heal as quickly as you can. So that you can eventually cook for yourself, so that you can feel encouraged, so that even maybe you can encourage others by your example.

May you be blessed with many many years of Great Life, and may you have the strength not to fight your mother or try to change her, but just accept that's who she is, and you don't need that kind of energy around you right now.

Do you know the principle, the bigger the front, the bigger the back? I understand from that, the bigger your challenge, the bigger will be your growth.

So go ahead, take the challenge you were given, and grow wonderfully!!

Klara