no problem - I was just trying to get an idea of where in the world you are to see if I could think of some resources.
there are some positions you may like to check out in the classifieds on this website. They sound very attractive.
sounds like youa re having a really rough time and could use all the support you can get.
If you need to get out maybe you can explore them. The position with Melanie sounds really appealing!
could you maybe offer to help out with the cooking? prepare some healthy snacks that appeal to you?
I know it can be rough sometimes when your homelife is not what you want it to be - I have experienced that too. But I have always cooked for myself since I was about 14.
I have a very close relationship with my mother but we fight a lot too. Sometimes it is unbearable. I find that the more hostile I feel towards her the worse it gets. Sometimes just thinking the word LOVE over and over while being around her has made a dramatic difference. Even if Love was the last thing I felt! It seems to shift things. I have done a lot of study of emotions, relationships and esoteric and subtle stuff and that can make all the difference.
I also used to think it was about my mother. It isn't - everyone out there is a relfection... it can seem that way....
have you ever explored yoga - I find it very freeing and helps move some of that stuck energy. just take your wrist into account. properly supervised it could help that too.
you may want to get some physical therapy on the wrist.
I find mine plays up esp when on the computer a lot. I use a small woollen sheepskin like (without the sheepskin) it is just expored wool pad and that works where all the high tech wrist supports failed!
just relax with the judgements - undercooked rice, overcooked veg. Just relax into your SELF at this very moment. Exactly how things are RIGHT NOW - you only have this now moment
check out the book
the Power of NOW by Eckhart Tolle.
anyway - just let go of all the head stuff and just be in this moment. Sometimes we cant figure things out with our heads and we just need to be and do the best we can and be open to what will present itslef to us.
as an aid to this - try repeating ALL of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory 10x whenyou wake up and go to sleep.
It sounds simple. It is NOT an affirmation -there is nothing you are denying - you are inviting aLL of life to come to you with ease. It is also a RE-cognition of the ancient Truth of who you really are. Brought to our awareness thru a method of inquiry called Access
www.accessraz.com
www.accessbeing.com
play with this all and let us know how you go!
Ilanit