Thanks a lot to everyone. Thanks for your support.
In fact, 2 years ago I tried to quit Paxil, I thought I have done it until I began to experience psychosomatic symptoms in my body, very bothering like numbness in my feet and some digestive disorders and anxiety came back because of these symptoms. I have noticed once during those days, that after eating lots of fruits, symptoms were worse. Happenned many times with me. That's why I believe now that food can do a lot, although I don't know exactly what relations are there between each kind of food and the different body parts. But depression or OCD like the ones I used to have, I didn't experience (I believe because I changed a lot during this period, my relation to God and some spiritual experiences have made me really less doubtful
in life, because all my obsessive thoughts before were about existence and like that). I was afraid and done really all the necessary tests, and nothing physically was wrong. I was put back on Paxil and everything was "normal" again. (Although I think that when I was on it, I felt anger like no time before). They wanted me to take 30 mg, I didn't do that, just took 20 mg, and after some months I started taking it every 2 days until I stopped 2 months ago. . Nothing is really wrong right now, except that I feel weakness in my nerves that I felt ofcourse during the first time I tried to quit. So I'd be grateful for any advice ( maybe the medication had a bad effect on my nervous system). Before, I was not able to realize how much important is food, and I really ate anything, never thought of what I have eaten. If a medication has effect on the brain, why don't we simply think that food has too, and it can be so good. I am eating lots of whole grains and my body is really grateful. Not eating meat (except fish sometimes) or dairy products, simply following the macrobiotic diet as much as I can, ofcourse searching for healing, but also because the body is holy and I don't want to disturb it with the wrong food for it. That is at least what is clear to me now.

Thanks a lot,

Elias.