[janeyric]

(Apologies for putting this in the wrong section, if that is the case. I'm not too sure if it is health, mind, body, soul, cooking, so thought it must be holistic!)

Could anyone point me in a direction for this problem/not problem?

I have been eating really well lately, much more so than in my childhood. Macrobiotics has really given me something very special- increased energy, vitality, patience, concentration… It has truly been a wonderful transformation and one which I feel will continue endlessly as I need to learn and change…

The thing is (and why is there often a 'but' in our minds?), sometimes I feel as though I have to crack this abundance of life, smash it by eating or drinking something that I wouldn't normally, like chocolate! It is not a craving- I do not even enjoy it, but afterwards I feel as though a lot of pent up energy, love, passion has dispersed slightly and I feel a bit more balanced in the long run. Does anyone else experience this? Or know what I am talking about?
A bit of background:… I have been macro for 3 years and eased into it over about two years. I never ate very unhealthy food beforehand although it did include dairy and some sugar etc, so I dont think it is a shock of change that has this effect.
Do you think it could be blocked chi? Perhaps increasing the challenges of life would help channel this energy. I have just started a local Macro group, which is small but full of life, to try and give back some of this energy I have so much of and share it with others. But maybe I need to do more.

It need not be a problem, perhaps this is completing a cycle of energy, although I am not sure it is entirely harmonious… though Tomio Kikuchi does say you can't have health without illness… etc

Any insights into this state or suggestions or references to a book that I have missed will be gratefully received.
With thanks,
j