I will take a chance here and write whilst in a manic state. Some people with bipolar illness (manic depression) function at their best when manic, but that is not the case with me. Some days I am just doing well to cook a reasonably decent meal and pace almost non-stop on the carpet in my place. House-cleaning is one way I channel my energy.
John Kozinski, who has been a macro counselor for many years, told me at the Kushi Institute that when I am in a mania all the energy is stuck in my head. That sounds about right. Adrenaline surges through my body with a pronounced "high" and I sometimes take no prisoners--even macrobiotic prisoners. It becomes a scorched earth policy where all is decimated in a fireball of frenetic, manic energy.
So, I'd rather be depressed than manic and that is not something you hear often from folks with bipolar illness. It is true for me, though. Depression is less destructive than when I burn all my bridges and am held hostage to the disease.
I made some fresh gomashio the other day so I can use it to try to yangize myself. I used to eat eggs when manic but I am trying not to do that now, as my poor pancreas has enough else on her hands. I have read that eggs, cheese and chicken can cause the pancreas to become tight and hard with the animal fats and extreme yangness.
I am grateful for this macro-blog space. Thanks to all you who read this, as well.
MacroBlessings,
Caroline V. Ritter
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